
Yesterday was a very hard day to me. Indeed I was rush for everything because Adam's school sport day. Usually on every wednesday Adam will go to music class. But, I had to cancel that and he went home by bus with the bigger kids and only arrived home at 1:05. About 30 minutes late that usual.
I had to rush him to get ready for sport day at 3, with lunch and at the same time he wanted to play and watched television.
As soon as we arrived in his school he told me he was sleepy and didn't want to go into the class. He cried until the class.
I thought he was going to stop. He didn't. It continued until the event started. Ahh..and then I thought he will stop crying and join the sport day. But he didn't. Not at all. For seven games he didn't want to do. I didn't know how to react and I didn't want to ask him to try because I let his teachers to do because it is considered as school time.
There were other parents who tried to encourage him, but I would rather say pressuring him by saying look at other people do it and you can do it too.
I felt so down because I couldn't get any best picture of him running or jumping. When everything finished he was happy! But he knew I wasn't so we didn't talk much in the car. I just asked him why didn't he do it, he said "I don't know".
Last night was very tiring day for me. I don't feel like to do anything else. Luckily I have my mom around. I asked her if I did anything wrong for pushing him so much and my mom didn't think so. She said may be he just doesn't want to do it.
I know he is 4, I am not pushing him. But I don't him to think it is ok to do what he did today.
Today, I went to talk to his teacher. She also couldn't understand why did Adam behave as such. He usually normal and participated at school during PE time.
I am still thinking about it today, but I don't want it to ruin my whole day with him. So I just did what I have to do today, but only god's know how is my feeling.